I spend a lot of time fitting my mom into my life, at least imagining where she would fit if she were here. My memories of her float in and out of my days and color many of the moments a little brighter, clarifying also many of the dull edges of moments as they fade.
One of my favorite shows, The Wonder Years, is such because I relate so fully to it. It shows the imperfectly beautiful love of a family in many ordinary moments that come together to form a beautiful story, and also shows how those years, The Wonder Years, pass like the flickering of a lightening bug. Brilliant, precious, fleeting.
As I watched my children as they played at the library today, I pictured so vividly my sister and I in our brightly colored windbreaker track suits and long blonde braids march into our hometown library excitedly, my mom smiling beside us. I even remember some of our most loved stories she read to us there. I can feel the chilled air of impending fall as we walked to the nearby park, and I can see my mom’s wide mouthed laugh as we slid down the slide into her arms.
I can see all of these things perhaps even brighter now as I experience these same moments, These Years of Wonder, with my own children.
These incredibly stunning, fleeting, precious years.
And, I realize now, the years of wonder are not only lived by children. Parents are lucky enough to be surrounded with the magic too.
These are the moments that, at the end of my life, I will look back on and smile…in utter wonder.